๐•Š๐•–๐•ก๐•ฅ๐•–๐•ž๐•“๐•–๐•ฃ ๐•‹๐•  โ„๐•–๐•ž๐•–๐•ž๐•“๐•–๐•ฃ

Collectively, we are all walking about from low vibrations, people, places, attachments, habits, and routines.
Removing old material items and outdated values which no longer resonate with who we are.
Withdrawing more from the human experience and moving into a space of seeking Spiritual, Religious, or personal enlightenment and empowerment.
Whatever your source of power, now is the time to activate it.
What use to serve us now bores us and may make us slightly uncomfortable.
Un-conforming and shedding layers which are mere projections of those who have led us to our present manifestations; we are the only ones who can genuinely provide all the support we need.
It is about the balance of public and private.
Dismantling old foundations which needed to crumble in order for new opportunities, energies, connections, and abundant energy to flow in.
Expanding beyond our own limitations, we are mustering courage we didnโ€™t know lied so deeply within us.
Screaming louder at the unfair and injustice; liberate yourself from whatever creates the heaviness of judgement, shame, or confusion.
We are not what we experience but we are reflections of what align with.
Clear your heavy thoughts because if as above then below will materialize all your confusion and fear.
Push forward, positively as you become more of yourself.
Continue to develop your boundaries and stand firmly against the chaos sent to test your will.
Secure yourself in all the shadow you are.
Let go of what hurts to hold.
Open up about how you genuinely feel.
Dedicate time to resting during this recovery process before Fallโ€™s harvest.
Honor your intuition and recall all your power as you rise to your call.
Show compassion for all others because the energy has influence on us all.
This year is about home, foundation + achievement, and self esteem.
Allow things to freely flow in and out of your life as they should.
Beg none for permission to express your highest vibration because the power is only yours to exert.
Devote more time to your daily Self Care rituals and routines.
As we move from Summer, closer to Winter solstice, I send love to help raise theย collectiveย vibration because we all are deserving of so much Moore.
The time for us to save ourselves is now.

๐”ธ๐•ฃ๐•– ๐•ช๐• ๐•ฆ ๐•ฃ๐•–๐•’๐••๐•ช ๐•—๐• ๐•ฃ ๐•„๐• ๐• ๐•ฃ๐•– โ„‚๐•๐•’๐•ฃ๐•š๐•ฅ๐•ช?

๐•๐”น๐”ธโ„‚ โ„™๐• ๐•ค๐•ฅ๐•ก๐•’๐•ฃ๐•ฅ๐•ฆ๐•ž ๐”ฝ๐• ๐•๐•๐• ๐•จ ๐•Œ๐•ก

I am almost one year postpartum and the rituals and routines I have indulged in have enhanced the healing process.

As previously discussed, my first child was a scheduled induction because she was 7 days past her due date.

With my second child, I was scheduled to be induced because she was projecting to be 7 days late, as well.

I want to explain the process leading up to my vaginal delivery.

๐•„๐•–๐•ž๐•“๐•ฃ๐•’๐•Ÿ๐•– ๐•Š๐•ฅ๐•ฃ๐•š๐•ก๐•ก๐•š๐•Ÿ๐•˜

About 6  days before my due date, I did allow the doctors to strip my membrane.

This is a process where the doctors take their finger, insert it into your vagina, and literally attempt to scratch or influence your water bag to burst so labor can start. Itโ€™s supposed to increase stimulation so you can start dilating.

This method was not guaranteed to accelerate labor but was worth the try.

Needless to say, it didnโ€™t do anything but cause discomfort for a few hours and spotting. The contractions after were very intense and honestly not worth the procedure. From my experience, it is best to honestly just allow your body to flow into labor on its own.

The emotional toll this takes on you, so frustrated and overwhelmed with the effects of the last trimester, save yourself the headache.

Instead, try indulging in pregnancy approved exercise, take long baths to ease your discomfort, drink more water, and rest your mind because your baby will only come when it is time.

๐”ผ๐•ž๐• ๐•ฅ๐•š๐• ๐•Ÿ๐•’๐• ๐•Ž๐•–๐•๐•๐•Ÿ๐•–๐•ค๐•ค

Everyone around me was delivering their baby before me and emotionally I was out of it! Being my second pregnancy, in fear of another c section, I was frustrated beyond words. Hormonal and exerting too much mental energy, I didnโ€™t allow my mind to relax so my body could naturally shift into labor. Take it easy on yourself transitioning into month 9 or even close to 10!

Your pregnancy is not theirs and your baby will come when it or they are ready! Staying off of social media is probably my number 1 suggestion to ease this mental pressure. 

Instead of emotionally overwhelming yourself, do whatever makes you feel more at ease. Eating, walking, resting, painting, dancing, drawing, or my pregnancy favorite; crying! Release those hormones through tears if you have to.

If possible, share with your partner, a close friend, or family member your true concerns and frustrations. Do not allow your emotions to drive you crazy because you may go beyond your due date or you could be the last of your circle to birth your child! Enjoy your process! Let your body take its time!

โ„™๐•™๐•ช๐•ค๐•š๐•”๐•’๐• ๐”ธ๐•”๐•ฅ๐•š๐•ง๐•š๐•ฅ๐•ช & ๐”ผ๐•ฉ๐•–๐•ฃ๐•”๐•š๐•ค๐•–

Everyday and I mean, every single day, since the confirmation of pregnancy, I was active. Walking the park, up hills, stretching, and even increasing my sexual activity. NOTHING will shift your body into labor but your bodyโ€™s time! I donโ€™t even want to exaggerate and say these methods will increase your chances because they may not! Being my second go around I thought my body would shift a little easier with the influence of exercise but as we know due dates are estimates; that date is not the day your baby signed to be born. Do not overexert yourself trying to push yourself into labor.

Instead, nest! Spend that time with your partner enjoying the final phase before this new beginning. Music and resting were my best friends at this point. Leave the errands to everyone else! Prepare your babyโ€™s space, write your birth plan, and cry. Let it all out because pregnancy, especially the end is a lot !

๐”น๐•š๐•ฃ๐•ฅ๐•™ โ„™๐•๐•’๐•Ÿ

I want to encourage more mothers to write a birth plan! In the event you are too preoccupied by the pressure to respond, you want everyone to know your wishes. This helps doctors and your delivery team be clear about your expectations. Your comfort is essential during delivery, so create the intimate space wherever you choose to birth, to enhance the ambiance. Share this plan with whomever will be present and doctors to ensure everyone is on the same accord!

With all this being said, the day I decided to not worry about going into labor, my body went into labor. My mucus plug came out at about 4am and the contractions had me in tears by noon. I couldnโ€™t even speak without crying and the contractions were every 2 minutes at this point. Mommies to be, my BEST advice for dealing with contraction is MOVEMENT AND MUSIC. Moving around during contractions eased the pressure not the intensity! I promise, on the ride to the hospital, music helped me keep track of my contractions and also distracted me. I know, I was both breathing and whining like a baby while bobbing my head to the beat. The air from outside blowing heavily on my face was also very therapeutic for times I was just too taken aback by the intensity of contractions.

Mommies, I want you to be prepared for the real! Itโ€™s bloody, itโ€™s messy, itโ€™s intense, and it does not HURT to push. Contractions on the other hand can take an army of the most masculine men out! You donโ€™t know where they are coming from. You donโ€™t know how to truly ease them. You cannot make them stop. You can only breathe through them. You cannot force your body into labor. You can only embrace your journey and wait for your bundle of joy to be delivered when it’s time.

๐”น๐•š๐•ฃ๐•ฅ๐•™ ๐”ป๐•’๐•ช

On October 11th, 2019 at 12:11 AM, after about 15 good minutes of painless pushing, Leilani Jiselle was born at 6 lbs 5 oz. I threw up leading up to pushing and cried because I was starving. Ladies FEED yourself through contractions if you can. I know what doctors recommend but I donโ€™t subscribe to medical practices. My wish was to not deliver in the hospital but by circumstances, I went. Regardless of where you choose to deliver, know your body is going to release everything before delivery. You may throw up. You may sh*t. You may scream holy hell! But I promise pushing does not hurt, your vagina will recover, and your baby will be delivered and placed into your arms as you are welcomed gracefully into the world of Motherhood.

Poem: 2/26/2020


February 26th, 2020

Published at 1:16 PM on 3/1/2020

Sunday


Sometimes, I can be a bitch.

Itโ€™s only exposed when I hit the switch.

& Itโ€™s not likely I flip it but the decision to, is quick.

As soon as the light is on, it all suddenly clicks.

That I have the ability to choose & the bitch in me, is not it.

The beautiful flower I choose to pick.

To some of you, that one you missed.

It all lies in the letters, that when combined.

They help us build the words we finally find.

As we continue to develop our vocabulary, our form of expression begins to shine.

But we have to learn to not fear the vibration that we exude when itโ€™s time.

To perform because sometimes I will.

I know itโ€™s toxic but I feel complete thrill.

Tingles running down my spine; it gives me chills.

Shivering with intense passion, do you even know how that feels?

It feels like the transition from the ground to take off on a flight.

Like floating freely in the wind, like a vibrant kite.

& Sometimes, I am not right.

But I left that on the other side.

Because for so long I inflated my pride.

But when I can feel the brewing of an experience that will tug on my eyes.

In the past I use to run, but now, there is honestly no reason to hide.

Because I did what I did with intention.

Determining if thatโ€™s good or bad, all depends on your position.

Sometimes we have to stop talking & honestly listen.

For the subtle signs, because weโ€™re so fucking loud, we keep on missing.

Wishing….

Photo credit: Jasmine K. Moore

1/4/2020

Discouraged in my heart,

I feel like this facade is falling apart,

All I wanted to do was to be admired like art,

I guess it was only window shopping,

I wasnโ€™t even apart of the cart.

Now itโ€™s so easy for me to play my part,

Not sure if ima finish but Iโ€™m disheartened at the start,

Trying to move in wisdom, since experience made me smart.

Iโ€™m saving the best parts for myself,

So carefully placed on the shelf,

Emotionally not in the best health,

Manifesting healing and Spiritual wealth.

Oh how I do declare,

That this treatment isnโ€™t fair,

My heart, Beloved refuses to spare,

Caught off guard so excuse me if I stare.

Finally at a place, where my mind detours from the race,

Moving confidently in grace,

Maybe itโ€™s time I take some space.

1/3/2020

Friday

Moon in Aries

Do you see who I really am?

Can I not pretend to blend with trends that feel heavy and worry me like sin?

Oh how big the grin that curves above my chin,

Gyrate and wiggle my fin.

I decided to go within,

Appreciate the powerful blow behind the wind,

Old relationships I am open to mend,

But for some I decided should remain at the end.

So familiar like kin,

The experience I am is rated a 10 out of 10,

Just like you customize a Sim,

The Baddest Queen like Kim,

You just might sink if you can’t swim.

I just want to be treated fair,

To be treated like you always care,

To feel the love behind your stare,

As you run your fingers through my hair,

From the sun you see the glare,

Of my nice brown almond pair.

Of round, big ole’ eyes,

Spiritual, so it’s no surprise,

Known to often hypnotize.

How heavy they despise,

Loving the element of surprise,

As happy tears fall from my eyes,

Conquered every obstacle placed before me,

Grateful and thankful to still be alive.

Now that my vision is wide,

I stand firm in my pride,

Got Beloved on my side,

Now I can finally enjoy the ride.

Grateful for all the tears I cried,

In him, I only confide,

Call him my Mr.,

I already know I am his bride.

10/19/2018

Sexually deprived

Manifesting passionate vibes

Hormones become alive

Water shed

From roaring cries.

Now my thoughts come alive

Dynamic duo

Formed a tribe

The heights of the orgasms

Can cause a heart frequent spasms

Queen of his physical castle

Shedding layers with no hassle.

Needing affection

Protect thee erection

Drowning in my river

Magnetically he shivers

Melting from the passion

But his lips continue to quiver.

Due Date 10|4|2019

Before gradutation begins, I wanna confess to you how I feel within.

I want you to know, you are the reason behind my grin,

& Since our Divine Union, I feel like Iโ€™ve been on a streak of wins.

Earthly Mermaid,

Look at my fin,

Mirroring your highest energy, I am your twin.

Not a flame but weโ€™re brewing intense passion,

Fiery red & blazzin’, so intimidation is our initial reaction.

From your presence in my life, I receive the ultimate satisfaction,

Thinking of all of the wonderful captions,

I could write on our pictures that visually express the authenticity of your intention & action,

Finally being satisfied, you are the first to ever provide more than a measely ration. 

I know this may be out of your fashion,

But can I help you guide your way through without crashing?

Call me Blitzen because I be dashing,

The facades of the past, we finally smashing.

So, I guess you can say I finally feel fantastic,

Tapping into my Divine Feminine; exuding the passion.

That in the past, I wouldnโ€™t expose,

As I sway my hips & point my toes,

Grateful for all of the things this journey continues to show,

Enjoying each moment in time, as we move slow.

Can I walk you through the door?

Where both of us can explore?

To secure ourselves & honestly be sure,

Ensuring all of our intentions remain pure,

Releasing the karmic cycle, no longer attending the Heartbreak tour,

Ready for more of the world,

As we gravitate gracefully over abundant floor.

5/24/2019 Thoughts

7:08 PM

I’ve been on my spiritual journey for almost a year and the one lesson I continue to learn is that healing and growth are constant and never ending.

Everyday we grow. We are more experienced. We are more aware of ourselves, our habits, and our thoughts.

I’ve learned so much about the woman I am destined to be and how resistant I was to change.

2018 was one of the most significant years of my womanhood. I suffered so much lost and gained so much more once I released the old and allowed unstable and insecure towers to collapse.

The moment I started honoring my intuition and being more faithful in my magic and ability; my entire life changed.

For years, I’ve allowed my ego to consume me and have made so many life altering decisions; none of them I regret because without this experience I’ve acquired, I would still be naive.

Being insecure and unsure of myself, I participated in activities and exhausted energy which lead to a complete change of scenery and an elevated perception.

Through the obstacles and challenges of life and love, 2018 rocked the socks off the woman I was and I allowed me to stand here as the beauty I am today!

I’ve done so much reflecting and inner work that I am amazed each time I catch a glimpse of the beautiful reflection staring back at me in the mirror.

I’ve transformed and am in my highest form, doing things that serve only my highest good!

I’ve allowed myself to be indecisive and restricted to the limits of fear for too long and 2019 has been a significant year of change and faith!

I’ve devoted the last year of my life to solidifying my womanhood and building security in myself.

Making the decision to honor my intuition has changed my life for a greater good and I am so proud of the woman I am today.

I am home. I am safe. I am in love with a man I’ve loved since childhood.

The magic that has transpired in my life is unbelievably overwhelming but I am so worthy of it and all that is to come.

I write this to say, you are always one decision away from changing your entire life.

Make the decision today.

I knew eventually he would do it

My calm collected cool

He almost blew it

Blocked him quick

I refuse to go through it

Insulted at the highest

Blunt and being honest

But he’s down right stupid

“Be patient Juni don’t lose it”

Being calmed down by cupid

He has to fight his own temptation

Embody Temperance

Practice patience

Because this cycle has to come to close

Whether you go through the valley or ditch and hit the shores

As you prepare for the ball Cinderella,

Will your King still being doing chores?

1 1 1 AM

I made a promise to myself

Above me

I feel place no one else

The passive chick is gone

Resisting abundance all along

Wrote the lyrics of this song

Of such high vibration

Sounding so monotone

Grateful for the baton I won’t be passing

Shattered the cycles of toxic fashion

For my daughter

I’ve realigned my traction

No longer a train wreck

Had to regain some control

I was losing all self respect

But grateful this slippery wheel

I’ve gained a hold.