I was hoping things would be different
But even with the target so close
He constantly missed it.
Ego is just a beautiful vision
Constantly repeating the same song
& I guess I finally listened.
Once a week, jail visit
The constantly tail chasing was making me dizzy
Sweating from fighting back
Now my hair is all frizzy
Sick to my stomach of being treated unfairly
So I guess it was to start missing.
See I allowed my boundaries to fall
& Under the radar he continued to crawl
When all along I just wanted him to call
Afraid to face the world
& I’m just not happy at all.
No longer singing the sad song
Unprepared for me all along
Questioning my position
Aware I’m not wrong
But now I just sit tearfully and stare at the phone.
Memories of love are fading
So early in the journey,
I’m feeling jaded
So much shit is delayed I’m sick of waiting
Withdrawing my attention
I’m a grown woman
Disgusted at how he can’t treat me like a lady.
So alone we have to be,
My beautiful family,
Has dropped down to three
Temporarily at least,
But this Belle can no longer detain the beast.
