Man I just want you to get it
Out the park, I wish you’d hit it
This empty space you can’t even fill it
The layers of my pain, you can’t peel it.
Reel me in, pull me close
Feeling second and irrelevant
Speaking up converts to doing the most.
I’m not even surprised,
I believe my ears and eyes
I really despise
The half ass tries
The salty river of cries
Thinking of how many times the rules should’ve applied.
Oh Beloved please step in,
I surrender, I release it all,
I let you win.
Please take off your shoes & come in,
Feigning for the affection of another is my sin.
Flesh so weak,
Heart built strong
Tallying the marks for all the things I’ve done wrong
No longer doing the most.
Forgive me please,
The faith I have puts me at ease
But I can’t even believe
You continue to tease
& Oh man please!
Every weekend we spin
Causing me to reach within
Grabbing the nearest rail
Turning thin
Hungry for attention
I’ll never win.
Love me in a special way
Can today be that special day?
Universe please take the ego away
It’s causing me too much pain.
I’m trying to not deflect
So I humbly reflect
Limiting the things I expect
Putting myself in check
Gathering my self respect
No tongue just a peck.
Kisses I withdraw
Step aside as I thaw
So sensitive and raw
Being perfectly patient is my only flaw.