Can no longer conceal what I feel
The assumptions of something real
I still feel triggered, I need to heal
Sick of asking for you to spill
Constantly left with the chills
& As Beloved spins the wheel
Constantly starving from the lack of meals
So I withdraw my attention
Beloved is here begging me to listen
Time to trust my intuition
Increasing my Self Love is my only mission
No longer granting his permission
Constantly feeling the distance
Fcking creating karma with his resistance
& At this point I don’t feel the bliss
So I’ll gladly withdraw my wish
To stand before the world
& Share our kiss
Secret mistress
So what did I miss?
As above as so below
Through faith I’ve learned to let go
Physically transforming I must continue to grow
But protecting my peace
As I regain control of this show.